Sunday, June 5, 2022

For You Made Us So



                                        - a song for Pentecost and Pride


“Hear my prayer!“

“No, hear mine!”
“But, you must listen to us!”

all the day long, o—


Horns blaring;

Cymbals clanging;
Bells a-change-ringing;
but hearts of stone, all,
hearts of stone, o—


Mercifully and softly fell the night.
Mercifully and softly fell the rain.


With the softly broken morning,
sun beaming through soft clouds,
the dove came softly down,
carrying a rainbow in its bill.


And the predictable drumbeat started,
but, what a difference, o—
the new day makes!


I sing a song;
I sing a song softly, o—


And just like that,
everyone that can speak,
everyone, o—
everyone can hear!


Oh, Love Divine!

There is no need to yell,
is there?


You formed me:
inward and outward, you made me;
you know the sound of my voice,
you know the sound of my song, o— 


And on this day that you have made,
wherein you have made all things new,
I sing my song, softly,
and everyone can hear my song,
and everyone’s song, o—


For we are the music of the spheres
—for you made us so, o—




© 2022 by Elisabeth T. Eliassen and songsofasouljourney.blogspot.com


 




Sunday, March 20, 2022

How to Shift the Universe

 



The omnīzon is the great bloom of events,
rather like an explosion of wildflowers
in the springtime of the year.


The trajectory of each subject coincides
with the trajectory of every object
arising from evolving space-time.


All that is real and true is here,
including all the secrets of nature
into which God has retreated, not withdrawn.


The intention of each wave and particle
is equally met by energy
from this sacred well of infinity.


Thoughts blossom, nestled within other thoughts,
billowing in all directions like bubbles and balloons,
some of which pop, while the others float onward.


Superseded thoughts remain threads of the fabric,
for nothing is gained, neither is it lost,
but that it might be found useful, sometime.


Words emerge along the fabric of thought;
shall they be seamed into action,
or shall they be knit as speculative plan?


What shall signify as intent is linear,
but the word as she is spoken and sung
is the event that makes worlds and music.


Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?
the query rings from the corporate stages
of the multidimensional concert hall.


This interruption, in future interrogatory mode,
signals present pressing need of other,
a cry from the unincorporated that cannot be ignored.


On the answer to this question
all future laws, prophets, devices and worlds depend;
the omnīzon and infinite space between await your reply.


For example, when I said, Here I am; send me,
the universe shifted, and when I ventured to ask, For how long?
came the reply: Until each now passes into each next, forever.



© 2022 by Elisabeth T. Eliassen and songsofasouljourney.blogspot.com


Note: I created the term omnīzon about 30 years ago, when I was toying with writing a science fiction journey novel loosely modeled on Teresa of Avila's Interior Castle and the chakra system. My manuscript is incomplete and unpublished, but the term I created lives on with me. What does it mean? The event of the cosmos happens in all directions simultaneously, and there are systems within systems within systems, as well as systems that impinge on other systems to draw or create energy. Every moment, however that is measured, is a new creation, the shifted/altered/re-formed universe. In science fiction, there is the important notion of responsibility for changes made to the space time continuum. If only every sentient being would live up to this responsibility!


Image credit:

Gordon Onslow-Ford

Constellations in Hand, 1961 

Parle's paint and aqua polymer on canvas;
permanent collection of SFMOMA

Saturday, March 12, 2022

All The Infinite Space Between

 


Because there otherwise might be silence,
the stones cry out,
mind you on your way!


Freedom is economy,
rather than autonomy;
choice is not license,
but responsibility.


This walk,
through the valley of the shadow,
is about all our meetings with other
so as to see divinity—and also self
—reflected, as in a pool of infinite love.


Would it be a surprise
to know each being
is responsible even for the air
—which seems free for all to abuse—
and all the infinite space between?
How best to use it?


The veil over perception parts
with the realization that
agency is the abeyance of will
to meet subjective moment
objectively.


Otherwise, how is the cultivation of Eden possible?


© Elisabeth T. Eliassen and songsofasouljourney.blogspot.com

Sunday, March 6, 2022

Final Interview for Civil Service Job

 

I had worked in the department as a part-timer in the temporary “send as needed” pool. What this meant is that I worked almost full-time, with no vacation time and only 24 hours of sick leave per year. [Think about that, for a minute.] The one huge benefit, which was something fairly new, was getting on the healthcare plan, after 6 months.


I worked through the entire pandemic in an office. [Think about that, for a minute.]


The people I worked with were fun, funny, quirky, and we mostly all got along. The supervisors were fun and engaged. I loved it there. 


As a temp, though, I was limited to a maximum of 18 months at that position. They throw you back in the pool and deploy you somewhere else. The oddity of a change in position classification meant that, by a technicality, I worked for a full 2 years in the position. As my 18 months (stretched to 24) was coming to an end, a permanent job offering for this classification was posted. I applied.


At first, my application was rejected. Why? The prerequisite was 2 full years of experience in the specific job, but HR said the experience from the temporary pool did not count. The job posting did not say that.


I told my supervisor, who told his supervisor, who got in touch with HR and made a fuss. I was later told that another applicant sued over that very issue, which put the entire hiring process on hold until the disputed details were sorted.


Eventually, I was informed that my 2 years of experience as a temp was sufficient for my application to move forward.


Over the next 9 months, I had 3 or maybe 4 interviews. Only the first interview was in person; the rest were via the Teams platform.


The last interview was a few weeks ago. The interview was supposed to take 20 minutes. I could not go home to do the interview (where I knew there would be no technical difficulty), as the office where I was currently working had a “4 person deep” policy for the end of the day. There had to be 4 people available to answer the phone – which seldom rang. [Think about that, for a minute.]


I had to use my own personal equipment from home, and try to get it to work within a basement office with poor outside internet service.


I prepared my phone and my laptop, and checked in with one of the supervisors. “Can you help me, if something goes wrong?” He said, “I’d be happy to!”


The time to log-on for the 3:50pm scheduled interview came. As luck would have it, neither my phone nor laptop would connect. The supervisor I’d gone to "in case of emergency" had, meanwhile, evaporated into thin air and was not to be found for the rest of the day.


In desperation, I ran to a work colleague. He came to my rescue and we were able to activate teams in the big conference room. The only problem was the camera was not set up; they could hear me but not see me. I ran to the nearest in-house IT guy, and he was able to help me with that part, while I profusely apologized to the interviewers and the HR moderator for the technical difficulties. My colleague whispered to me, “Don’t worry, this kind of thing happens all the time. It won’t be held against you.”


Finally, I could be seen and heard. I could see and hear the interviewers, both of whom I had worked with before. Lovely people, who looked tired and bored. I’m not sure, but this may have been the last interview scheduled for the day.


So, finally, the interview was under way, with all the usual questions: Why do you think you are ideal for the job?; How do you organize your work?; Give a specific example of a time when you dealt with a tough customer, and what was the outcome? Tell us about a time when you had a problem with a co-worker, and how was it resolved? 


Those questions answered, possibly in the usual way, the moderator said, “Thank you, that is all the questions we have for today. Is there anything you would like to add that was not touched on in your responses to the other questions?”


It is my answer to this (non)question, I believe, that got me the job. To the best of my memory, this is what I said:


“Yes, I do have a few remarks to add… 


"In all my interactions with members of the public, I try to help people have confidence in the agency.”


The interviewers looked up from their notes.


“People have to wait in line; they have to wait on the phone; they get cut off and have to start all over again. It is so easy to feel as though the agency, whatever agency it is, is unresponsive…


“One time, I answered the phone, and the lady on the other end said, ‘I’m sorry to interrupt your work.’ I paused for a moment before I responded, ‘You are my work… I mean, that’s why they hired me: To be here, for you. Sure, I have paperwork to do—this paperwork is for other people, such as you. All of the work done in this office is for you, so that your need(s) can be met, your problem(s) solved.’”


While I was talking, I was simultaneously thinking about my own encounters with phone trees and service representatives. I was also thinking about the word economy, which is from the Greek. The original meaning of the word encompasses the meeting of need and also hospitality. We think about this term so differently, today. I was also remembering that our county agencies are the true, in situ safety net for people in need. This does not mean that they always work well, but the intent is service for the people.


I went on, “People are tired of the inefficiencies of our systems, not always calibrated to interact well. When they call on the phone, after sending emails that seem to go into a black hole, they are understandably frustrated. The county worker is where the rubber meets the road, the nexus of those programs that are funded by state and sometimes federal tax dollars. We are intended to bridge the gap between our core technical inefficiencies, so that people can receive the aid for which they’ve applied. This work is about access; it’s about equity; it’s about inclusion; it’s about needs being met from within the community. Drill that down, my friends, and that is democracy in action.”


The interviewers, throughout these comments, seemed to perk up. Eyebrows twitched; there were small smiles; there was the added scribbling of notes.


In a moment, it was over. I thanked everyone for their patience with the technical glitches, for having heard me, and wished them well for the rest of their day. 


There is so much rhetoric about bootstrapping and self-sufficiency, out and about in our world. The truth of the matter is that we are not lone rangers; rather we are members of communities. Citizenship, from the earliest meanings of the term, assumes the offer of communal assistance to those whose needs cannot otherwise be met. Citizenship more than implies responsibility to one’s neighbor, as well as to any person identified as “other.” 


Of course, this doesn’t mean such interactions are easy, and that they don’t come with a price. But they are sorely needed, in a world full of need and expectation. As is true for poets, civil servants don’t get into this work to become millionaires… and they put up with a lot of abuse while they don’t become millionaires… So, there must be another reason why people choose this work…


This may merely prove that I am still an idealistic dreamer, after all these years. I’ll own it.


I start work on Monday morning.

Wednesday, January 5, 2022

Dromedary Dreams

 

Journey of the Magi, James Tissot, c. 1894


Silent footfalls belie big burdens
—traces of feet will be gone by morning,
shrouded by wind-sifted curtains.


God is completely present, even
in these evening breezes;
every desert is wholly a part of Eden.


With all the planets aligned
to the fullness of ascended moon,
light is abundantly consigned,


Accompanied by comet and star
—all is made bright and visible;
no matter where you stand, there you are,


seen. Yet, onward we ply and plod,
destination unknown,
as they say in the Land of Nod.


Being—to be—good, by deed,
word and thought, is to lodge in a place
so full of goodness, there is no need


to be elsewhere; such is the goal.
To find, there within goodness, a refuge,
where to coalesce and be whole,


in spirit, mind and body,
this is what the dromedary dreams of,
while traversing the ancient wadi.

12/23/2021

For Epiphany

© Elisabeth T. Eliassen & songsofasouljourney.blogspot.com


Notes/Commentary: 

* Genesis 3:8-9, some translations suggest the Divine Being enjoys a walk in the cool evening breezes.
* Moon, Jupiter, Saturn and Venus to aligned around (Dec. 10), joined by the moon.

* Comet C/2021 A1 (Comet Leonard) will be visible throughout December 2021 and into early January 2022

* The mythobiblical Land of Nod is located east of Eden, from which Cain was banished for murdering Abel. But this is less about a story and more about a language. Nod is the root of the Hebrew verb “to wander.” Related words reflect meanings ranging from vagabond and fugitive to being disturbed, agitated or moved. To “live in the land of Nod” can mean “to live a wandering life.”


My friend Bajun R. Mavalwalla posted Tissot’s work on his Facebook page, along with some thoughts on the magi, from the traditions of his family. I woke up a week later with the words “dromedary dreams” in my mind. Since the words showed up, I thought I’d better work with them!


This poem is meant to be lighthearted and from the point of view of dromedaries, the common pack animal of the middle eastern deserts. Humans (with their baggage) run all over the place, trying to find the person, place or thing that will make existence perfect (“destination unknown”). The dromedaries in this poem rather think you don’t have to run around to find that—well, perhaps they would prefer to find, stay and experience the goodness of a single place, any place that is illumined by Divine light. (This would certainly save wear and tear of the desert sands on dromedary feet!). 


Ultimately, this is a story of immanence, the holiness of the seen and unseen. People run all over, looking for holiness, when in truth they are surrounded by it, if only they could see and be illumined/informed by the signs, and act in accordance with them--that is, with responsible stewardship and benevolence. Rather than make this a story about astronomers from Persia with three gifts for a baby messiah, my rendering is intended to honor the traces of Zoroastrian monotheism that come to us through the Hellenist Judaism of Philo and Christianity—the transformative threefold ethical path of good thoughts, good words and good deeds.


E.T.E.








Thursday, November 25, 2021

Sursum Corda

 



From near or far,
Here we are,
Gathered around
the table abundant.


Too long, too long apart;
It’s difficult to remember
The proper way to start.


We join our hands,
We pray for all lands
— for as we have suffered,
others, likewise, have—
And recall those, bright and bold,
Who now the arms of history hold,
Since last we met like this.


The warmth of touch,
Oh, so warm! to share the lively
Pulse of light and life! so much
Missing from living, lately!


Within the candles’ glow,
Within the warmth of home,
This meeting is where we sow
Seeds for Spring in the receptive loam.


Let’s lift up our hearts, Dear Ones!
We lift our cups for the toast,
We lift them up!, reply all tongues,
Gratitude and joy, uppermost—


—Reminded and ever mindful
That all the primary things
Are not things, at all.






Sunday, October 3, 2021

Colibri Animato



for the Feast of St. Francis

3 October 2021
     - my 60th birthday


There is a language we share:
the air that together we breathe,
beneath the open sky!


Who could have known that would be enough
to bridge such an enormous gap?


But even the diary from one year ago
does attest:


“Rounding the corner,
and there you are!


-- We share this life,
though one is fractional
to the other

-- We share this home;
though our dwellings differ,
we are only liminally separate
-- In truth, we are together."


Of another shared aspect,
--that of torpor--
our intersectional relationship
reaches the overarching conclusion:


Choose life!


For, suspended animation is merely life incremental,

slowed to the blessing of the molto adagio,
where the dream that animates us bids us all to live

to each newly dawning day,
slowing each passing moment of awareness
so that we may all be the moment together, and in time.


For how long, my friend,
shall we bless one another’s company,
in the newly dawning om of day?


You greet me by landing on the tomato cage,

despite that fruit being no longer in due season.


Only in the most foreshortened sense of being
can my three-score years coincide with your own

-- yet will I delight in your special greeting,
in the beauteous now that we have,
in the blessing to have been truly seen
and to also have truly seen,
in the mutuality of seeing and acknowledging,
of knowing,
and of caring,
and seeking to live cooperative within that notice--

yea, let this, what we have, be our deepening moment
for as long as providence may bless us both
with such patience and perspicacity,
with such sacred and familial union,

as is that rounding of the corner,
to be with you,
        where you are with me
and we are joyously
together.


© 2021 by Elisabeth T. Eliassen and songsofasouljourney.com